Should I put up signs on the street corners, saying "lost: Patience, if found please return to owner". It amazes me how stressful life is without this one little virtue can be. Are any virtues really small? After meeting with the therapist last night, I realized even more how much off track I really am. I feel like I have been run over by a bus, emotionally, mentally and physically. And with work, definitely thrown under a bus there. K (the therapist) was really kind, and did not push me for a lot yesterday, which was good as I had nothing to give. After she left I had to feed the kids, bathe them, and wait for the dog to be done at the groomers. Which means I could not put the boys down until I loaded them up in the car, in their pj's and got the dog and drove back.
We got back around 8:30 (they are normally in bed by 7ish) and as I was entering the house the phone was ringing, and it was E. He was in a complete panic. He was unable to reach me for about 30 mins, since I just flew out the door I did not bring my cell phone. I thought of it on the way back, that I had hoped he didn't try to call, as I know he would panic. Which he did. He always goes to the worst case scenario, like someone broke into the house, and killed us all. He was completely freaked out, and said the next call was going to be 911. A little to the extreme, but I understand, sort of. I promised I would be more diligent about taking my cell phone with me.
Work was pretty busy, as it is quite apparent to me that they want all the projects I work on brought to completion before I leave. Although they have no idea I know, only my closest friends know, it seems funny to me that they are trying to work me to the bone to get it all done. I really do not think they have thought letting me go all the way through. The repercussions on the group is going to be huge. I am the only technical person in our group, and currently I am the go to gal for all tech needs in our group. All of that will end as soon as I come out the back end of the bus that I have been thrown under. It cannot fall upon my coworker as she does not have the skill set, she does a completely different job than what I do. We work great as a team, but individually we have different jobs. This group is in for a big eye opener once I am no longer around to call when things don't work. Oh well.... they took away my company cell phone last month, and I refuse to give them my new one. Not on my dime. If you cannot reach me at my home office, oh well. Leave a message.
Well off I go to work a job, I no longer have.... motivation is in short supply these days, for a lot of things. Still looking for my patience, if you do find it .... please be so kind as to return it.... I think I need it desperately.
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