Will I ever sleep again??

No seriously.... will I? E has been home since Thursday morning, and has slept a good 60% of the time he has been here, and I don't mean overall, I mean 60% of the time normal people would be awake he has been sleeping. I have no idea what it is like to get up at 2pm. I don't even think as a young girl in my 20's, after partying all night, did I sleep until 2pm.

I am completely exhausted lately, and I was really hoping for a day to sleep in, and someone else, oh...let's say their father, to give me a break. But alas, a girl can dream can't she?

I have not done any type of mediation at all in weeks, just not sure if the meditation thing is for me. Guess I need to discuss it with my life coach, since I am paying her. I wish I could just let it all go, and relax. But being the only adult in the house, I always have the boys in the back of my mind. What if something happened, like if one fell out of the crib while I was "meditating" and didn't hear him? Not that I would be that far removed from reality, but with music and a guided meditation cd playing, I am pretty sure I wouldn't hear them. They are on the other side of the house from our bedroom. I am sure I will figure something out.

I am still really excited about the prospect of doing something on my own once I am no longer employed by the corporate sector. I am working hard on getting all my ducks in a row, and working on the finances to make sure it can be a success. Need to get the website up and running, but need the content, which will be coming from my partner in crime. She is very good at writing, where I, not so much.

I kept thinking yesterday was Sunday and that today was Monday. I was actually disappointed that it was not, that was a strange feeling. But I just think I am excited about this new venture, and can really only do work on it during the week when the boys are not here. I haven't said anything to E about it yet, as I know his doom and gloom attitude would come through, and he would just put a big old slice in my sail. So until more ground work is done I will be just working through it.

Well back to my second Sunday of the week.... it's just not fair!